Hi, it’s been a week or so. I decided to stop blogging for a little bit.
I am feeling a little under the weather as of late, and comes a pretty heavy depression episode.
If you guys want to know the details, some context and some of my rants, click here.
I just wanted a little bit of a breather. With a lot of things going in my mind, especially work really destroyed me internally that I find it really hard to catch my breath.
I tried taking a break from blogging, but honestly, it didn’t work. Work was still constantly pounding me left, right, front, back and centre. Since the blogging break didn’t work out, might as well just keep blogging instead when I have the time.
Personally as of right now, at the point of writing this post, I am feeling a little better, but still under the weather. I am actually thankful that I had an extra holiday since it is election day. But anyhow, I am derailing from the point of the post.
I really want to breathe.
At the age of 25, a lot of things are going into my mind, like future plans, current solutions to my problems and how I can stop living in the past.
I personally think that I am not young anymore, no offense to the elderly here. I really think I need to rethink my life plan since all of my plans at this point are just simply… not gonna happen. Probably setting my bar a lot lower.
But one thing is for certain, I am not going to keep blogging forever. I will and can leave anytime. I just not feeling as motivated as before anymore.
I was not having fun at all. I know, getting stuck at home for some is either heaven or hell. I was in hell.
Oddly enough, I may be introverted, but I enjoyed going out more than staying home. I am not sure if it’s my family (more context on that in the link above) or what, I really like going outdoors.
I actually volunteer to do grocery runs, anything involving me going out.
I have been thinking a lot during quarantine. On whether should I keep staying around on the internet, or should I just remove everything and start everything again from scratch, since a lot of things have not been working out.
A lot of times when I write posts during quarantine, it feels like a chore than an actual hobby. I used to be able to write everyday, but now… not anymore.
As I feel more and more unwilling to write, I kept contemplating to leave the blogging scene for good. If I leave now, people probably don’t even care anyway, since most of the anibloggers have abandoned me for good, what’s the point of constantly pushing on for the sake of shouting into the void.
But I cannot just simply leave since this site is worth 5 years of hard work, so I’m in a dilemma.
If I do leave, I most probably won’t tell anyone about it, since no one probably even care.
Sorry for the pretty depressing post, and the bad format writing as well. I feel rusty already.
That’s all for me. I feel up for it, I will write my Spring wrap up tomorrow, and another review on Sunday.
I will see you guys then.