Eh? She’s breaking up with me?

I replied the text by asking why. She said she’s moving to Japan because of her dad’s work. I asked for her flight details and she didn’t tell me.

I immediately out of my house and hailed for a taxi. Reached the airport, ran around like a lost kid.

Eventually I found her and her family, walking out of the check-in counters. I greeted her parents.

Me: “I… found you…” while panting.

Harumi: “I’m sorry… I should have told you sooner…”

Me: “May I talk to you… for a bit before you leave…?”

Harumi then asked her parents. They allowed us to talk, so we walked to a café. Sat down… and the atmosphere was intense…

Harumi: “Sorry I have to break up with you…”

Me: “I understand, but I’m willing to date you long distance… We can use that game, as a form to pulling in our distance.

Harumi: “It’s never going to work out…”

Me: “Who knows? I will work my way and eventually move over to you.”

Harumi: “I don’t know…”

Me: “Believe in me…”

Harumi: “Sorry… I really can’t. I really love you but it’s not going to work… I have to go…” She then gave me a final kiss and was walking away.

I stood up and hugged her from the back.

Me: “Please don’t break up with me… I really… have nothing left…”

Harumi: “Please don’t be like this… It’s impossible…”

Me: “I will fly to your place and visit you as much as I can…”

Harumi: “Don’t waste your money… You will find someone better, eventually. Forget about me please…” and she released my grip.

I stood there, looking down, then looked up and stare at her back till she disappeared from my sight.

 

I walked back home, looking down and feeling dead.

Mom: “I heard Harumi and her family has moved out… I assumed you rushed out to see her off at the airport…”

Me: “Yeah.”

Mom: “Are… you okay?”

Me: “I’m fine.” I turned around and smiled. “This is probably my life.” and went back to my room.

I went back to play that social VR game, with a different avatar. I joined a random lobby and sat alone, back to the good old days.

“Hi, long time no see…”

I looked up.

“Rei…mi?”

Reimi: “Yeap, that’s me. How have you been?”

Me: “Heh, me? Nothing much, had a relationship with a childhood friend and broke up because she moved out…”

Reimi: “Oh, I see.”

Me: “She didn’t believe in a long distance relationship…”

Reimi: “Not surprised, everyone don’t believe in a long distance relationship.”

I sighed.

Reimi: “But I’m willing to try it out.”

Me: “Huh?”

Reimi: “I’m willing to date you, long distance.”

Me: “No thanks, I’m not worth dating, and besides, you deserve someone better.”

Reimi: “I’m just pulling your leg, I understand you don’t want to date at the moment.”

Me: “Maybe never ever.”

Reimi: “Oh don’t be so negative.”

Me: “Let’s just be friends…”

Reimi: “Sure.”

Me: “I’m going to take a break.”

Reimi: “But you just got online.”

Me: “I want to rest…”

Reimi: “Okay, I will see you tomorrow?”

Me: “Yeah, hopefully I will feel better.”

Reimi: “I can help you get over it…”

Me: “I don’t know…”

Reimi: “You will get over it.”

Me: “We’ll see.” and I logged out.

I spent the night crying. Suffering in silence. Going to school was hell, all I get is people asking me about Harumi. I want to forget about her but they are totally not helping at all.

I quickly ran home after school, skipping lunch and logged into the game.

I roamed around different lobbies, talk to different people, until…

“Ah, found you!”

Me: “Ah… It’s you again.”

Reimi: “How are you today?”

Me: “Still the same I guess… All I get is school are questions asking me about my ex…”

Reimi: “I get how you feel…”

Me: “You have an ex?”

Reimi: “Yeah.”

Me: “I see…”

Reimi: “It was pleasant, but the ending wasn’t sweet.”

Me: “Breakups are bitter most of the time…”

Reimi: “I guess, but I got over it, you can get over it too. It may take awhile, but it’s possible.”

Me: “Maybe.”

Reimi: “Let’s play some games.”

Me: “Sure. What games?”

Reimi: “Let’s play some go-karting.”

Me: “Okay, it’s been awhile, so I will be pretty bad.”

Reimi: “Same here.”

We went on to play games, we had fun and played for over 3 hours.

Reimi: “Oh, it’s dinner time…”

Me: “Same for me too.”

Reimi: “Did you have fun?”

Me: “Yeah.”

Reimi: “That’s great, let’s play more often?”

Me: “Tomorrow is Saturday anyways, so yeah.”

Reimi: “See you then!”

Then I logged out.

“I wish… I could live a life… without emotions… or feelings…” and I took a sip of beer.