Hi there. This is not an exciting post so I will just cut straight to the point.
I’m going to end this blog and my Twitch channel. Not now, but probably before this year ends.
I have been thinking about it since last year, and eventually came to a conclusion.
Why? There are many factors leading to this.
- I have no emotional, psychological support from my family, real life friends.
No one supported what I did, in fact everything I do online. They think that they are insignificant, maybe there are right. This is how the materialistic Asian society works. Which is why I keep ranting about moving out, I want to be free from this superficial bs.
- I do know my content is crap.
I do know the quality of content I write is getting worse. Even my stream content isn’t great. People do say I’m funny, but I am THAT funny, my audience should have expanded at some point. But according to the stats, my viewer base is getting stagnant or actually declining on both WP and Twitch. It’s not about the money I earn, in fact invest a lot of money for my hobbies to the point that I think it’s not feasible in the long run anymore. My dream is that the money I “earn” on both sides is enough for it to self-sustain.
- Life is taking a turn
A lot of RL stuff happened for the past 6 months that I’m starting to lose passion on being a “content creator”. I’m starting to feel burdened to write or stream, something I don’t experience for the first 2 years of blogging and first 6 months of streaming. I cannot feel the love and passion I got at the start of my “content creating” adventure.
And other elements that I find too personal to share.
So yeah, this is not an “all-out” stunt to get viewers and stuff, but a serious decision that I struggled for months and eventually find a conclusion.
Will I ever come back? I don’t know about that. I might come back, I may disappear permanently.
How will you find me once all of this goes offline? I will announce that at a later date, because I’m thinking about deactivating my Twitter too. It’s under consideration, so nothing is set yet.
Will I ever reverse any of these decisions? I doubt so, I can’t really find any convincing reason for me to stay around any longer.
So I want to thank you guys in support for the support for what I do for the past 4 years. Being a solo blogger isn’t easy, and it seems that I’m not that kind of person being capable of handling this for a long time.
I will try to write as much as I can till the end of this blog. Any questions just put it in the comments, I will answer them all.